January 25

In one sense of the road back to God is a road of moral effort, of trying harder and harder.  But in another sense it is not trying that is ever going to bring us home.  All this trying leads up to the vital moment at which you turn to God and say, “You must do this. I can’t.” Do not, I implore you, start asking yourselves, “Have I reached that moment?”… What matters is the nature of the change in itself, not how we feel while it is happening.  It is the change from being confident about our own efforts to the state in which we despair of doing anything for ourselves and leave it to God. // C.S. Lewis